A few years ago, I went through some very difficult trials in my life. As a result of what I went through, I really think I was devastated in a lot of ways. I think out of all the turns and tumbles I took coming through it, the worst was,
I HAD BECOME UNSURE. UNSURE of what? UNSURE of myself.
It’s probably normal to go through relocation issues, financial repositioning and recovery, and even forgiveness and avoiding bitterness issues. Most of this is normal and somewhat predictable.
I think out of all that you may go through and battle with, I believe that the worst thing that you can become is UNSURE.
UNSURE IS THE UNSEEN SCAR THAT CANNOT RECEIVE ANY STITCHES. It’s the disease with symptoms so subtle that you may have it but have no clue you possess it. UNSURE is demolition by dynamite in the form of a silent implosion. It’s the over a period of time loosening of the nut and bolts interworking of one’s self.
How and when it happened, we have no clue. It just so happens that one day we realize that the person we use to be is no more.
The cool, calm, collected and confident person we use to be has left the building. Now there seems to be a stranger standing where we once stood but looks just like us. How do you know this? I know this because I can clearly compare how I answer and respond to questions, conflict, and circumstances now, compared to how I use to be. Some say, Man you are getting SOFT.
In actuality, I have somehow become UNSURE of myself and the decisions I have to make.
There was a time when I would quickly and internally weigh the pro’s and cons of a situation, bark out my observation, and the marching plans in break neck speed and confidence, but NOW I am second guessing and requiring an excessive amount of outside approval, opinion, and validation.
My PAST struggles, failures, and mistakes have rendered me almost UNSURE AND UNABLE to make confident decisions now. When you thought you are right about something but then it turns out that you were wrong, IT PLAYS ON YOUR MIND.
When UNSURE use to be the almost silent, soft spoken voice that sat in the back of your mind, NOW IT SPEAKS WITH AUTHORITY. UNSURE argues in every arena of your life now like a confident high profile seasoned lawyer in a filled court room with television cameras present.
UNSURE has now rendered EVERY simple decision difficult, every opportunity a chance for disaster, and every blessing a possible trick of the enemy.
UNSURE declares and keeps score in your life. UNSURE shouts, “You can’t handle nor can your afford to make another bad decision.” UNSURE’S job is to INSURE THAT YOU DON’T BECOME ASSURED!! If you DO make a decision, UNSURE’S desire is for you to drag your feet, lose sleep, and stubble over all it.
UNSURE is unseen and cannot be detected by the naked eye. You can be unsure but look at peace and highly confident.
Here is the deliverance!!
YOU KNOW YOU!!
It is imperative that you not just get the old you back, but the NEW YOU IN CHRIST!! The new YOU IN CHRIST is Confident because now we no longer walk within our own wisdom, but in the WISDOM AND POWER OF GOD’S WORD.
We make mistakes when we go at it by ourselves, but THANK GOD FOR HIS WORD!!
Proverbs 3:5-6 TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART. LEAN NOT UNTO YOUR OWN
UNDERSTANDING. IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM ABD HE WILL DIRECT YOUR PATH!!
Evict being UNSURE by allowing GOD to take up PERMANENT RESIDENCE in your HEART AND MIND!!